It has nothing to do with philosophy.
You didn't get it and you won't. It is what it is, just like the game of golf. One can talk and debate to death without agreement, just step up and show one's game . End of story.
Once knew a kid whom could argue with the best and taunt a nice golf game with a single digit handicap index ( according to himself with the online index system - self reported scores ). One day he made a mistake by posting his golf swing on the forum. He'll be lucky to break 100 unless he could putt the golf ball in the cup from 100 yards out.
Not saying you're like him, I'm sure you're solid as you state by yourself.