Rousey Suicidal After Loss to Holm

Toulon · 2016-02-17T01:49:13+00:00

http://espn.go.com/mma/story/_/id/14785901/ronda-rousey-says-considered-suicide-loss-holly-holm ---Do you think this was solely because the loss of status i...

Toulon

LBlack14

Kudos, LB. You wrote this knowing scrutiny posted about or not would come your way but did it anyway because you felt it was worth enough to help someone else. Couldn't applaud you more.

I have watched the debilitating effects of this and have a hard time understanding it because I'm not living it. Reading what you wrote helps give me more insight to a situation I have little.

If only more felt as you, this world would be a better place.

FauxAmish

Toulon Kudos, LB. You wrote this knowing scrutiny posted about or not would come your way but did it anyway because you felt it was worth enough to help someone else. Couldn't applaud you more.

I have watched the debilitating effects of this and have a hard time understanding it because I'm not living it. Reading what you wrote helps give me more insight to a situation I have little.

If only more felt as you, this world would be a better place.

There are way more of Us out there John than most would even believe.
We walk and interact next to you each and every day.

We are not unique, we are like what You have gone through Yourself with your varing stories over the past several years. We just sometimes suffer without trying to dominate Our thoughts upon others.

We are those that suffer Depression.

We, I include Myself Thankfully ...

Have experienced the ability to walk, one step at a time, through a Blissful world that once was very dark.

Toulon

FauxAmish

More kudos for more bravery. I'm sure there are several other members out there wondering if they should just jump in and tell their story but will eventually just not. It takes courage...it takes strength to speak of this.

I'm sorry you suffer but I'm also happy you are able to tackle it with an attitude of openness. The closed off sufferer has it far worse as there is no support for them making the world even darker.

The thing that is hard for me is I think ALL of us suffer from some form of depression. Situations and negative thoughts are not unique to those diagnosed "depressed". The part I have a very tough time understanding are those who look to have a world that is just fine but claim they feel as it's all falling apart on the inside. I've been there before as a younger man saddled with expectations unattainable placed on me from my father. However, I think the down I felt for not being good enough was a result of identifiable origin. It's just so hard for me to understand that someone could be "depressed" with no smoking gun so to speak...they just are? I don't understand that as I feel everything has a reason behind it but I've watched someone I love tell me that it's something real that I just don't get. I'd love to ... but... how can I? I can by hearing real life testimony from others. I think the more I read and hear about others like yourself and LB, it helps me understand a little bit more.

My prayer is the fog lifts minus medication. Again, Pat, thank you for your courage. Your suffering has been used to help someone and that should make you feel a little bit better.

LBlack14

FauxAmish

Pops, I LOVE you! Folks like you and me need each other, I firmly believe this. I think you have my number and if not, I'm more than happy to give it to you. I know you've been through some shit in your life and even though I'm not the most intelligent or "mature" mf-er in the world, you are always more than welcome to chew on my ear. I want you to know this.

I'm up right now for no other reason, but to medicate. I just lost another close friend today who had cancer. The thing I'm having a hard time wrapping my head around is that the cancer didn't kill him!! I talked to him and his wife last week and all was looking well even though he was stage 3. He and his wife got the flu, they admitted him and he threw a clot he had in his leg and it went to his lung and killed him. He never got the chance to beat the fucking cancer. I got the call earlier this afternoon.

"God"??? Yeah right.

The only reason I'm here, breathing, right now, is an 11 year old, beautiful girl who loves her daddy, unconditionally and the fact that I don't want to put my beautiful parents through the misery of losing a child even though I'm 50. My Mom and Dad are both 79 yrs old. My Mom is my best friend on the planet.

Oh and I love my dog Roscoe.

FauxAmish

LBlack14

Landon, I do have your number and will be forwarding in an email mine later if you don't have it.

You have so much to keep you on a path that is so invigorating, so full of promise. You have your Daughter and You also have your Wife.

You are a very Lucky Man. You know this and don't you dare throw the Dumb card to me. I've been a Baseball player My whole Life and believe me my favorite position was Catcher. From that position one can see the whole field and in some aspects control the Game.

You are a person who knows Himself, has some doubts, but seeks to fulfill the path that he truly knows is righteous.

Toulon

Sorry, for your loss, Landon.

LBlack14

I'm struggling right now Pat, in more ways than one.

FauxAmish

LBlack14

Feeling any better ?

Love ya Son.

Weirfan

LBlack14

Landon, hang in their brother.

LBlack14

After talking to you, my voice of reason, I feel much better now. I can't thank you enough for calling me Pops!! Love you more than you'll ever know!

FauxAmish

LBlack14

You just did.

Hoss7504

The stuff in this thread is what makes forums and online communities like this amazing. The camaraderie and support you guys have shown is truly awesome. I am very glad to be A part of it. And LB, I'm sorry for your loss, brother. I lost my mom to cancer last May after they said she was beating it. It was a bat to the guts...

FauxAmish

Hoss7504

Hoss,

Thanks for Your reply. You lost my friend the single most important person that perhaps you may ever encounter in your Life.

"A bat to the guts" is a unique viewpoint. But an expression of a loss that
all who have experienced can certainly understand and have total empathy.

Thanks for your sharing.