garyt1957
Roger that. I got into a few Netflix/Prime Video series, but that has run its course. Been reading some John Grisham novels, but there's more to life than spending 3 hours per day with my nose inside a book. Sick of crossword puzzles, something I used to love. Got into Sudoku, but now that is growing stale too. I'd love to go outside and hike or jog, or even walk and get fresh air, but a bum hip has essentially rendered me inactive in those endeavors.
Thankfully my dogs keep me somewhat distracted and amused, but even then - they get bored as easily as I do it seems, especially this time of year. We got 3 feet of snow on the ground here, and I spent several hours digging out and hobbling behind a snowblower that wasn't designed for that challenge. Luckily it kept fighting, plowing and blowing like Braveheart, and eventually the driveway and cars were all cleared and ready to go.
So.. I went to the grocery store this afternoon and it felt like I was released from prison. Grabbed a caramel latte from Dunkin on my way home and listened to a few sports podcasts during the drive. Spent a few moments this evening preparing dinner (salad and homemade pasta Fagioli soup.) Just waiting for suppertime to get here now.
Miss my kids, miss my friends. But (as far as I know) we're all healthy and overall I'm just grateful that boredom is the only major struggle I'm dealing with at the moment. Having spent most of last year taking care of my mom, then dealing with my sister's death a little over a month ago - I'm reminded just how much I have to be thankful for, even those moments when it seems most difficult to find something to be grateful for. Gratitude has changed my life.
Better days are ahead. I've come too far to just give in to hopelessness and depression. After being in that state for the better part of a decade and having God deliver me from that, I've learned quite a bit about acceptance since. These trials have helped me better understand the difference between simply being "alive" versus actually "living."
So... not meant to do anything other than to tell you - you're not alone! Keep the faith!
